This is always a time of year for me that I tend to do a lot of deep thinking and taking stock of myself. I enter into this season of giving thanks, preparing my soul for another Christmas season and letting go of mistakes made in the old year and goals set for the upcoming new year.
This year I have had a few months reflect on my shortcomings, loves, hates and basic seasonal nostalgia. Here are a few of my ramblings:
- I am a bad blogger (sorry you few, but hearty followers...thank you though for hanging in there).
- I still write in cursive (my kids hardly know what cursive is).
- I love real fires and hate gas ones.
- I love tacky colored Christmas tree lights.
- I love full on Half and Half and not milk in my coffee.
- I love kissing and hugging my kids until they push me away.
- I miss the Sears Wish Book.
- I wish there were Christmas carolers coming by my neighborhood, and that my kids wouldn't be too embarrassed to have me go out and carol.
- I miss believing in Santa.
- I miss my Grandma giving me new PJ's every Christmas. I miss my Grandma and Grandpa.
- I love being woken up by my girls every Christmas morning and wonder what I'll do when that stops happening.
- I love making handbags with the patients at the Children's Hospital every year at this time and am worried that without a staff that I won't have anyone to help me do it this year.
- I love that my 14 and 12 year old still want me to read them Christmas stories for the twelve nights before Christmas.
- I hate the phrase X-mas.
- I vow to go to the sing along of Handle's Messiah this year (even if it is alone)...hold me to it followers!
- I love wrapping gifts beautifully.
- I love having our annual Christmas tree picking family arguement, only to discover that each year we have picked the perfect tree.
- I love the girls fighting over who gets to put the angel on top of the tree.
- I wish we could get a new puppy every year for Christmas.
- Even without having a job I will be late on my Christmas cards (whatever, I'm a looser)
- I always ask for cardigan sweaters for Christmas and everyone thinks that I am just being nice for asking for them, but I really do want them.
- I wish it would snow here in Charleston on Christmas this year.
- I refuse to listen to Christmas music until the day after Thanksgiving and get mad that the radio stations play it before then.
- I hate Charlie Brown's Christmas (don't hate me).
- I miss having only three network stations and waiting for the Christmas specials to come on like Rudolph, Frosty, White Christmas and Wonderful Life.
- My favorite Christmas song is "O Holy Night".
- If I had one Christmas wish: it would be to ease my husband's worries....and if I got an extra wish it would be: to make my girls not have to go through the torture of being teenagers (ha-ha...well I believe in miracles)!!
For us, as with so many others, we have much less than in years past. Having less has made me see the absolute beauty and perfection of what we do have. I am indeed blessed with abundance of grace, love, memories, friends and family. I hope whomever may read my silly little musings has a joyous holiday season and that your treasure is as abundant as mine.
Merry Christmas, Mary. From your old school friend Barbara Behan.
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How are you & the 1st qtr of 2010 doing?
ReplyDeleteI am very interested in learning how you are greeting the struggle to began again.
Please blog
I just discovered your blog. Hope you begin writing again...I enjoyed reading it.
ReplyDeleteI am with the other commenters, and hope you'll start blogging again :-) I am like you, also a bag designer.
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